Allow me to introduce you to Alex.

No, it's not the Alex I mentioned in a different post. This guy is actually named Alex. And strictly speaking, Alex does not exist.

That's right. He's not real.

Some background info would probably be appreciated here. I'm a writer, as I also mentioned before. I've had characters speaking to me in my head for quite some time now - the first was Maeve, an original character I roleplayed with a couple of years back. I've had multiple characters, original or from fandoms, in my head: Carolina (original), Mona (original), Ryan, Brendon and Spencer (Panic! at the Disco fandom), Kendall (Big Time Rush fandom), but most notably, there's Alex. With Alex comes Jack, but he's not as vocal.

Alex is originally the singer from All Time Low, called Alex Gaskarth. Jack is Jack Barakat, the guitar player from the same band. I ship them, which means I would like to see them in a relationship (but pretty much just in fan fiction, I'd much prefer them to be happy in RL than to make my weird fantasies come true). I started writing and reading ATL fan fiction about 1.5 years ago, I think, after a Creative Writing class on fan fiction. After that, I slowly but surely wrote more about them, and suddenly, Alex started speaking to me.

He would tell me what he thought of the current story and how he would like it to go. He'd tell me little things that later on turned into stories for themselves. One time, he found out what I had in store for him in a next chapter and decided to hide. (Until I managed to get him to stop doing that, I literally could not write the chapter.)

Eventually, it stopped being just the stories and started becoming more personal. When I felt bad, he would try to cheer me up a little. When I was in a writing mood, he'd feed me some ideas that I could write. When I was stuck, he would help me move forward.

Alex had been quiet for a while until last Saturday, when I was unexpectedly upset about something and was very mad at myself for being so upset.

He popped out and tried to make me feel better. He told me that if it was okay for him to feel those things, it was okay for me too. If I hurt, in whatever way, there would be more people that hurt. Feeling emotions isn't bad.

Stupid thing was, it actually worked.

Alex has made a little corner for himself somewhere on the edges of my concious mind again, and I don't mind it. It's nice having him there.

I realize all this makes me sound insane. As far as I'm concerned, though, Alex has helped me through some bad times and celebrated the good ones with me, and he can stay for as long as he likes.

If I'd been seriously mad, I probably would've been admitted to an asylum already, but Alex doesn't hurt anyone.

We're all mad here, right?

Nothing personal.

Holiday times!

Wel, they're pretty much over. Sadly. However, much has happened. I guess :P

We lived with three people in my tiny room for about two months. Sir was gonna live with me for the holidays, that much I knew already (and was really looking forward to!) but then it turned out a friend of his was basically homeless for the summer and he kinda moved in as well. It was fun, don't get me wrong, but it did mean the summer months have taken a diffeent turn than expected. Sir had promised more D/s and we just never got around to it. It's kind of annoying when, before you can do anything that's even slightly private, you have to ask someone to go to a different place first. Ah well.

I started playing Borderlands 2, though, because said friend had it on his computer. I'd already started earlier, but now I continued, and I have a level 21 Siren :D Shame I won't be able to play her much anymore, though, but as soon as I get a laptop that I can use for gaming I will get Borderlands and play it some more. Also thinking about trying Portal - I've heard a lot about it, watched some RageGamingVideos vids on it and it looks really cool. Can't wait to have a good laptop, either :P

What else, what else.

We, from Creative Writing Workshop, hosted a contest during the Introduction of university where people had to write down their most memorable moment on the back of a beer coaster. We had so many great entries and deciding between first and second place was especially hard! We needed all four of us to figure out who won, haha. It all worked out great and I was psyched afterwards. I usually am, after something we organized turns out great. I think I may know what I would like to do later, for a job :)

I moved into a new room yesterday and there's still a bunch of unpacking to do but most of the work has been done. It's bigger than my old one (and doesn't that just figure, the moment the two guys move out I get more space) and a lot closer to the centre so I'm happy. :D

I watched some series, too - Sir has been watching Total Drama Island (and the rest of its seasons) and I watched some with him, me and the other guy watched almost all of Sword Art Online and started on Adventure Time, and I watched Spring Breakers, which was a really good movie. Also, lots of RageGamingVideos, Generation Hollow, and PewDiePie. It's especially fun watching the latter play horror. I don't think I'd want to play Amnesia myself (besides being a scaredy cat, the game itself doesn't seem that interesting to me) but it's fun watching PewDie fall out of his chair :P
If you're looking for good gaming videos, try either Rage or Hollow. Rage tends to focus on Portal 2, Minecraft, and used to do a lot of Cubeworld, and Hollow has Minecraft, indie games and also used to do Cubeworld, and they're awesome. Rage makes all of the bad puns and Hollow seems to be a lot like me, and together they have the best dynamic. I ship it. :P

Anyway, that's it for now, I'm gonna chillax some more and enjoy the silence.

(It's too damn quiet! xD )